I found out recently that I am no longer in remission. Last week I went in for another bone marrow biopsy and a needle biopsy to my neck to confirm my worst fear. Starting in November I will receive a more toxic chemotherapy to put me into remission once again before undergoing a stem cell transplant.
When I initially found out I was angry. Maybe it was the emotional roller coaster my oncologist was taking me on over a period of 2 weeks, "there's no way it can be cancer. there's a 50% chance it's cancer. there's no way it's not cancer." Maybe it was because he said I could be cured, "again". Either way, out of my anger I found the motivation to look death in the face--again, and started preparing myself for battle.
That's really all I know for now, I will update when I can. You can find my original post from when I was diagnosed last year here.
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. ~Eleanor Roosevelt
When something bad happens you have three choices. You can either let it define you, let it destroy you, or you can let it strengthen you. ~Unknown
You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. ~Unknown
But sometimes it is necessary to do that which is too much.
- Pope John Paul II
If you're going through hell, keep going.
- Winston Churchill